Freed From Shame

Meet Kathleen. I was 29, married, mom to three kids under the age of 5, a recovering perfectionist.

We had just moved to a new city (exciting!) but were a bit burnt out. We jumped at the opportunity to head to a retreat.

There, we were assigned a task: “Sit quietly in a room with Jesus and listen to Him.” I was skeptical, but apparently Jesus liked the plan because He showed up.

As I sat in a Sunday School room, head bowed and hands crossed like a well trained Presbyterian, I couldn’t shake the feeling that someone was looking at me. As creepy as that sounds, Someone was. As I cautiously lifted my head, though I couldn’t see anyone, I sensed God gazing at me as He spoke these words to my heart through His Holy Spirit: “When you talk to Me, you can look Me in the eyes. I fully know you and accept you.”

With these gentle words, I began to weep in shame. This is when God first began to show me how ashamed I was in His presence. Since then He has given me a life-giving promise I found in Psalm 34:5 (NIV),

"Those who look to Him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame."

That day, I received an invitation from Jesus to be set free from shame. This marked the beginning of a long journey, a journey I am still on, learning to relate to Jesus and others honestly, not in hiddenness, nor in shame.

What about you?  When was the last time you sat and listened to Jesus? Have you ever tried simply sitting in silence before Him?

Might there be something He longs for you to hear?

I invite you today to set aside a specific time to sit quietly in His presence. You won't regret it.

About the Author
Kathleen Selje is the Children’s Music Director at First Presbyterian in Colorado Springs, CO. An educator at heart, Kathleen graduated with a B.S. in Elementary Education from UW Eau Claire, where she met the Navigators. Creatively teaching about Jesus in various settings for twenty years, people have described Kathleen as “zany” about encouraging people in their pursuit of God. Wisconsin natives, Chad and Kathleen, along with their three children, re-located to Colorado Springs over a year ago to direct the Nav20s work.